Thank you, Tristan. I'll give you a quick rundown so you have better picture. In 1979, when I was 14 and the year my wife (Natasha) was born, I left the church (Protestant) except when my parents forced me to go. The reasons don't matter now. For the next 30 years I dabbled in Freemasonry, Native American spirituality and finally Celtic paganism (my roots are part Scottish). In the winter of 2001, traveled to Belarus to meet Natasha's family. She took me to a church (Orthodox) in Mogilev, Belarus (as a tourist thing) and the sense of calm and peace I felt there was overwhelming, like I had come home. However, we would be married for 10 more years before I officially converted to Orthodoxy. Natasha never pushed or asked me to become Orthodox, I did my own research. Orthodoxy includes discipline and self-sacrifice, something that appealed to me as a former soldier. Orthodoxy has been referred to as the "Marine Corps of Christianity". The church only suggest we follow the disciplines (Fasting, Prayer Rules, Regular Confession and Communion) it does not say we "Must" do it. However, it does say if we do it then we are more likely to cleanse ourselves (not completely) by the time we meet our death. I do my best, but am not a monk so just can't keep up with everything. What I do keep up with, helps beyond description and human reason. Everybody's journey is different and if you need advice, just ask. We Orthodox are not heavy on proselytizing so there never any pressure as we respect the free will of the individual. I guess the best way to describe Orthodoxy is that it is a "hospital for sinners" in that we come to be healed but first must recognize that we are sick. There are plenty of great books available as we are the oldest form of Christianity in existence mentioned in the "Acts of the Apostles". I hope you find whatever way that your path leads, I nw know mine. The trick is now to stay on it. Peace.