We all have those moments and times, brother. I have decided that part of my act of defiance to the enemy will be to live the best I can no matter what they shoot at us. Now, it doesn't always work yet I strive for it constantly. Don't let them ruin your life. Stick up your middle finger in the direction of moscow and go for a run. Ya gotta start somewhere. BTW, my piece on Medium Warrior Writers definitely had you in mind.