Yep. You hit the nail on the head. I am processing many of the same thoughts\feelings now that we have returned to Kyiv. Funny, we don't want to be anywhere else despite it all. Going to church is helping some but having been away for so long, it's difficult for us to get back in the habit. I smoke a cigar and drink Ukrainian cognac one night a week and that also brings peace and relaxation for me. Have you thought about going to sauna\steam room? That also seems to help and cleanse us when we are way down in the dumps. There's a decent one on Reitarska in the Raven's Yard that is not too expensive. Maybe like the flowers in spring, we will all blossom when the war ends. Anyway, I am off on Sundays and Mondays if you want to grab a coffee.