You are obviously beginning your journey into the dark recesses of Dostoevsky. He has been my favorite author for almost 20 years now and I have still not read all his work because of their depth. If you have time, please check out my novella which is based on his "Notes from the Underground". https://jgsennett-78059.medium.com/note-from-a-reluctant-alpha-male-b771f09f142e